One year ago, my grandad passed away. It was around the same time the eternal migraine started, and I never got to tell him what was wrong with me. Part of me feel like he knows though. He made the same decision that I have – to donate his body to medical science, so he is currently at Trinity College. He absolutely adored TCD, having lectured there are Professor of Economics. It has been hard, as there was no funeral. One day he was here, the next he wasn’t, and there wasn’t really a chance to say goodbye as such via a funeral or gathering.
If I want to see him, I go to TCD and see his portrait that hangs in the Dining Hall building. It’s a great portrait – if you zoom in on his mouth you can see his knowing smirk! I know I am biased, but I wouldn’t even say he was one in a million. There was simply no other human being like him on earth, he was so driven, yet always had time for family and such a kind demeanor.
I want to make him proud. I want to help other people who struggle with pain, with illness. I want to fight for rights to medical cannabis, a drug that can help so many people. Boy do I want to qualify as a Nutrition & Health Coach. Whenever I feel like I can’t do these things, I just go and visit Papa’s portrait and he reminds me that I can achieve these things.
This day next week, I get the keys to my house. I am so excited! It is a busy week ahead with college at the weekend, getting the keys to my house, packing up my stuff. These things bring me joy though, because I couldn’t have contemplated doing them a year ago. It is very important I take rest time in between all this though, self care is so incredibly important. Papa was very good at it, slippers on and telly or book reading in the evening, then to bed. I shall follow his example. Good night 🙂